10.3.11

can you fucking believe it is already October? i can't. new york has become chilly virtually overnight and i don't like it one bit. there is something about a chill in my bones that i will never get used to. sure, i love the seasons changing and what that means for cooking, clothes,etc. but Jesus, i hate being cold. i hate getting out of the shower and immediately having goose bumps. i hate putting on so many layers that i feel like a packed sausage. i hate that the sun isn't up when i get up at 6:20 for yoga. i hate the that very same sun goes to bed so god damn early so that the night is endless and the day is but a glimmer of light. i hate the thought of the the months ahead that are filled with dropping temperatures, hissing radiators, rain, snow, wind, and ice.

it's true, i hate all of those things. but i do love you and i love that you're my dad and i love that i am alive and i love that i can dance, bike ride, cook, sing, draw, paint, laugh, cry, hug, kiss, smile, high-five, snuggle, and love. i love that i can love. no matter how cold it is i am still full of warmth and love for you and everyone special in my life. so there. go fuck yourself cold weather because i am to hot for you!